Friday, June 26, 2009
another day of pain
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Its been awhile
Sorry everyone i know its been awhile since i posted anything. ive been having more spouse problems and its really put a strain on me. but ive been talking to soneone whi has made me see a brighter day and reminded me that i can be happy and that things will work out if i follow my heart. So i am now working on a plan to get into a better place in life.On a side note we got a cute baby calf named stevie yesterday and he is so loving. he bit my butt though which i must say was not that cute from my point of view. Isabella is doing descent with her potty training and lilly is still nursing like a champ. actually shes nursing so well i feel drained at times.
I am currently waiting on my new and first beco butterfly baby carrier to arrive , mail lady must think im crazy by now. once it gets here i intend to start hiking again, i really miss it. i wish i could had the funds and could talk dear sis into going together to buffalo river just me and her and go canooing. im still here as of now but things are starting to look up. now if only i can get my car fixed
Monday, January 5, 2009
the pain
im the girl who hides her pain with a smile that brightens everyone elses day
so now here i lay the pain is always and will not go away.
my life is crap and crap itll stay.my love is hate my hate is love
this time i can not rise above.
i want and need to leave but stupid me i still cleave.all i ever wanted was a simple life
to be a mother,and wife.i love my girls but i cant fight no more,i wish i would just fall dead to the floor. dear god take away the pain. cant you see slowly get it over already.
take me out of this place im so past ready