Monday, January 5, 2009

the pain

a poem i wrote the other night when i was in such pain from all thats been going on
im the girl who hides her pain with a smile that brightens everyone elses day
so now here i lay the pain is always and will not go away.
my life is crap and crap itll stay.my love is hate my hate is love
this time i can not rise above.
i want and need to leave but stupid me i still cleave.all i ever wanted was a simple life 
to be a mother,and wife.i love my girls but i cant fight no more,i wish i would just fall dead to the floor. dear god take away the pain. cant you see slowly get it over already.
take me out of this place im so past ready

Thursday, January 1, 2009

happy new year

well 2008 has come and gone and now we begin 2009. i hope everyone else had a better year than us, there are some i can never forgive and some i can never forget.